The sad day ( The day after Rally )T.T

this morning when i woke up at 2 pm...
then only i realize tht rally is offically over ....i am very sad ....bcoz from wad i knew ystrdy i might not be able to go and meet with the oties ...bcoz of my dad ...
i m also sad that when i woke up i am not in the church .... so i went back to sleep to forget abt it but its too hard for me ...
and when i started to think abt all the things that we had been thru ,
all the happiness ,
all  the sad things ,
all the fun ,
all the laughter we had together .
started to cry in the heart .... its so sad .... and i really wanted to go to church .... to see u guys.....
i really dunno how to describe my feelings at that time...
its so sad .... :(

ThE 3rd day and the last day of the rally :(

3rd day ~ 

hmm....

today i cant really woke up that early coz something happended ystrdy ...

:(

during session, so happy tat get to sit with her bcoz get to see her nice smile .... xD

its was so touching when i watch the mv that ben showed us its so touching ....

i will still cry although i watch for like 3 times ad ....

all for love a father gave , 

for only love could make a way , 

all for love the heavens cried , 

for love was crusified , 

oh how many times have i broken ur heart ,

but still u forgive if only i ask ,

oh how many times have u heard me pray , 

draw near to me . 

everthg i need ...is u 

my beggining and forever, 

everything i need is u .

<3

but when came back from break , 

i found out that someone had sit on my place .. 

so ....:(

just sit with others bah .....

after that i dun really have a chance ad....

During inner healing , 

its like so tired then fall asleep le ... 

i was so regret that i had sleep during that session ...

the worst thing is when i went to sleep , arranging my shirt ,

and then only i realize that my white pants thats goin to be used for the black light had been stolen ....

wad the hell weh ...

white pants oso wan to steal ... 

nothing to do meh those ppl ?? xiao =.=

The last day !!! arrrhhh ....T.T

Oh my gosh ...

today is the last day ...

so sad ... 

we woke up and quickly , pack up , and went to the bus to go ack to SIC ;D

in the bus everyone was sleeping coz too tired ...

after setting up in the hall we continue with all the sessions by ben and father john :D

oh my gosh they were the best speaker that i had so far ....

its so awesome to have them here in the rally ...

so after that the participants split to their workshop and practise 

while the closing

practising their ice breaker so me and benny went to think of our solo to make it better ... 

later its FAMILY NIGHT , 

everyone was so nervous and so it just goes on succesfully until the end of it .....

when i reaches the end all the oties went to the front sit to look at the video :D

its so sad to know that its goin to end ad .. 

we hug each other with tears on our eyes ... 

its so sad that we got to go home .... 

its not that i dun like to go home but ....

is that its damn sad that some of us might not be able to see each other anymore ... 

:( 

I told my mum tat i will go to my friends hse to stay coz we will need pack up until quite late ....

but she dun wan ... so i got to go home ....

then suddenly graduate come out with this fun game ... haha xD

its like everyone got to touch the floor with one hand while the other on the nose then spin 15 rounds ....

so we turn .... and its so funny that some of us fall on the floor .... and ya its so fun ....

xD 

After the game we went to pack up ... until like 2 am ...i went home with my friends mum car ... 

the only thg i knew was my dad was angry that i stayed at church until 2 ... 

and he also called the ldr of the ministry ....

arh .... dam sad ... i really feel shame of it ... :(

The 2nd Day In The rally :D

~~The 2nd day of rally ~~
Today as ussual we woke up at 6 ...
so we went to shower ...
but wad i knew was the participants actually woke up at 5
earlier then us ...
so it like wad the hell ???
so early ?

So i went to Cafeteria to have my breakfast ! :D
But then i one of my friend told me that the girl tht i invited her to come and join the rally had some trouble with the dorms ....
so i asked them wad actually happpend ....
after i heard wad they said i was so shocked...
bcoz Girl A is very scared of the cocroaches but unfortunately there is 19 of it in her dorm...
so she changed her dorm to her sis's but the graduate dun agree with that bcoz its one of the rules in the camp.
But i was really shocked with wad her sis said " we paid money to come here so we shud have our own choice "
i am thnking is this the friend i knew ? oh my gosh !!
i am oso scared that girl A will be thinking of goin home ...T.T
its so hard for me for that day ...
i really dunno how m i goin to talk to her ...:(
and all the graduate had been talking abt her sis...
and i feel sad bcoz i m the one that called her to come but now she is causing trouble to everyone ....

SO ...
we continue with the sessions ....
until one of the sessions that lead by Marc ....that i am goin to do a drama with a clown suit ...
so i quickly go and do the make up ( clown make up )
its so uncomfortable with the clown make up on my face ....its makes my whole face feel tight and its so sticky
eeewww....
i am quite worried with it coz i suppose to smile the whole time without showing my teeth ...
B4 i went on the stage i prayed ...
And so i went on it ....
during that time i had felt nothing ad ...and i started to feel that " there is 200++ ppl only mah "
not that much oxo .....
But overall i think that the drama is okay ??
so i felt damn happy and greatfull for God's Presence and with his help only can do it succesfully =D

When i went to outreach with the participants i will normally ask for their name but i have this problem
Short Memory ...
so i cant remember all the name of the participants ...
but there is this girl that keep asking whether i still remember her name ...
so starting i dun really remember so i find a alasan that i got to go ....
xD
so until time to go for workshop practise
i found out that she is in the drama workshop oxo ....
then thats where i remembered her name deep in my heart
bcoz of her nice smile :D

At night ~~ Dancing with the Lord ......
that night is the night that everyone suppose to be high ....
so everyone start singing .....
the best part is when it comes to songs like one way , you deserve and all the fast and rok songs ...
bcoz everyone will be jumping ....at the same time "showering" xD
Girl A and her friend and sis were standing behind and they were not enjoying it T.T
so i keep pushing them out to have fun but they keep saying NO ...
arhh.....
i dun really know why they dun wanna join us .... T.T
so we keep planing to cre8 the train thg ....xD
its so fun unitl some of us fall down ...haha ....
but time flew so fast and it comes to the end ......

so ....
everyone went ot shower and went to bed ....
Good night :D

Opening Night ~ Youth Rally !!! xD

The last night and getting ready for rally =D
everyone is practising for it and is damn nervous and excitting ...

The First day of rally ~~~
Run the whole flow for the opening night ....
then went to shower to get ready to welcum the participants..
b4 the bus came everyone is so nervous and excitting and cant stop jumping xD
suddenly i saw the bus pass by the main road so i thaught its the bus so i quickly go in the hall and shout
'' aaarrhhh the bus is here !!!"
but then it went somewhere else so i thaught that its the wrong bus
so ...
keep waiting for the bus ...
but then one of the graduate said that the bus need to go and u-turn so everyone was shouting and running ....
at the same time 2 bus came from the main door !!!
aaarrhhhh!!!!!
all of us were jumpng everywhere to welcome them =D

Then i am incharge of taking the bag ...
so we quickly go do our job...
its so happy and scared to see the participants came in the hall ...
during that time the feeling was awesome ...<3
after finish with our JOB we went to outreach with the partipants ...
Oh My Gosh !!!
its so scarry when i saw the participants and i was wondering how m i suppose to talk to them coz i m sux in communicatting wif ppl .... hehe xD

Then everythg goes on until the night ....~ Opening Night ~
Wow ...
everyone was so nervous coz its suppose the night where we as the outreach team to 'break the ice' of the participants  .....
SO it begin ,
during that time its so nervous bcoz i had never been on the stage doin any performance with 200++ people ..
its super super scary ...
but once i step on the stage all the fear in me had just gone when i saw the crowd ....
and it just went on .....
When i m on the stage i saw my mum where sitting with the participants ...
actually i m quite scared that she will be mad at me bcoz i m using a pin to pin my hair
but i hope she understand bcoz i m GOOD CONSCIENCE so i got to have the Good Boy (NERD ) look ...
but when the opening night end
 she dun really mad at me but she said TWO WORD that touches me the most ' well done '
its so glad to hear it from my parents that dun really support me to join this ministry .....
and all this will hapen all thanks to the Mighty Father In Heaven !! Praise the Lord ...
its so awesome to feel his presence and have him be by my side ....
woohoo....
:D

COunt Down ...4 more days to GO !! woohooo .....

Its like today oni i realize that there were like  more days to RALLY !!!
waaa........
goin to be crazy ad ........
damn worry and scared !!!

But today is so weird that my dad dun really get mad when i went to practise and with xtra 5 Hours ...
hmm....
kind of weird , but praise the LORD !! :D

This is like my 2nd day of blogging !
and still havin trouble wif the settings and all kinds of stuff ...
someone pls teach me ....
:(

COunt Down ... 6 more days to GO !! woohooo .....

Heart is so messed up now its like happy and sad feeling were mixing together :) :(

SO ... Today as ussual went to practise :D

But todays practise is from 8 - 12 so got to wake up earlier

and had praise and worship for like 3++ hours ?

non-stop dancing and singing(Screaming) for OUR GOD XD

Its Awesome ... and everyone had fun 2 

The sad thg is during jumping and dancing my Knee's Bone hurt !!!

T.T

Halfway during praise and worship we went to take video of JUMP SHOT ?

Overall its okay ... but i fall on the part my knees injured during praise and worship until BENGKAK le :(

so dun actually can walk properly ....

After that me and <.....> went to SHIOK SENDIRI with our BBOY moves ..

haha XD

Its damn funny coz got to do it at the right timing by using the camera's timer ....

but keep getting the wrong timming so the pic is so blurr until the end only perfect

hmmm....

halfway taking pic ,

someone came out and says the practise over ad ...

so its like okay ????

and the worst part is we miss the CLOSING PRAYER @.@

WAD TYHE HELL ???

And no one knew that we were outside ...

so....hehe XD